Someone told me I'm too harsh on myself.
I just realised that this person is right.
When I mistakes I beat myself up to a pulp. In my mind.
I would replay this mistake over and over and over again and go through the different scenarios as figure out what went wrong, and how to fix it.. and then branch it out to the different scenarios after if I did it a different way.
Even when things are not my fault, for some reason I just shoulder it on.
I never was aware that I do this to myself until recently.
No point badgering myself over the past. A mistake is a mistake. I'm human. It's time I allow myself to make mistakes. Acknowledge it. learn from it. Move the fuck on, sister. No point brooding and beating myself over something that has happened and which I have no control over right?
Gotta live for the now. Not the past. not the future. Live for the now. Which is a gift that's why it's called the present.
Man i love kungfu panda.
I swear as soon as I get home, I'm going to watch it for the 205th time tonight.