I'm tired and not well rested. Apart from it being a dreaded Monday, today feels like nothing went right over the weekend.
I like fairytales. I wish I was living in one. Except, I don't want to be THAT useless, dependent, skanky, damsel in distress princess who sits around and wait for some stupid rich handsome prince in his majestic white steed to save me from a tall tower guarded by a fire-breathing dragon where we will then ride into the sunset, back to his castle and live happily ever after.
In my fairytale, I want a stupid stable 9-5 job I actually don't hate which pays me enough money to live my current lifestyle comfortably without my having to worry about budgeting, or when is the next price revision of EVERYTHING and perhaps fall in love with a simple, sensible, guy with a 9-5 job who shares some similar interests and loves me back like I love him, and if I'm lucky, maybe he won't give me too much trouble, or have me worry about him too much... Then once we're both financially comfortable, maybe we'll get married, open a joint account (apart from our own personal accounts; where we'll contribute a percentage of our pay into it every month) and get a cozy place for ourselves - with a dog please. On the weekdays we'll just chill out at home after work, sipping at our drinks to wind down while we catch our favourite tv series. We'll have our fights. We'll make up. We'll have our trips and holidays in faraway places, we'll indulge in good food when we like to, buy that toy or pretty thing we want, take a drive to a local island on long weekends, catch the movies we want to catch, hit the gym. Then maybe we'll have kids.
I'm not asking for any fucking 10,000 dollar handbag. I don't need a pretentious overpriced fast car. I don't need that stupid holiday villa at venice. I don't want Karl Lagerfield to design my clothes. I don't want a private jet. I don't need a diamond mine. I don't even want a stupid large stone on my finger. I don't want 10 maids to bring up my children. I don't need a brad pitt. I don't want to quit my job and live the life of a tai tai. I don't need to be famous. I don't need that latest most expensive electronic gadget. I don't need a guy who can afford to buy me everything and anything I might ever want, or don't want.
I want an average life, with some niceties sprinkled here and there, that'll be perfect. I know this world is some tough shit. I don't need an extravagant happily ever after. I just want my happily ONCE in a while.
Sure I dream about greater things. About shooting for the stars, and hoping to land among the clouds. Then I wake up to this... real life. And in the real life, if you're not born into the right family, even the simplest dreams are so hard to achieve. That is, if it that dream doesn't involve a plan trying to snare some rich, loaded "prince" to cater for your every whim and fancy, unlike a lot of girls I know and heard about, which disgusts me to no end. That's just not right lah, imho. Coz at the end of the day don't you want to look back and know that you achieved something for myself with yourown two hands? I do.
What's wrong with not expecting for too much? What's wrong with not dreaming big? What's wrong with being happy with just the simple things? Be the best daughter, sibling, friend, employee, companion, or (maybe) parent one can possibly be. Fuck when you think about it, that's no simple feat, okay.
In the end, I'm just an average person, who looks forward to simple pleasures like sleeping-in on a rainy day and catching a good movie. Trying to live my life the best I can. It's not SUPER - but it's so very stable and reliable. Realistic. Constant and comfortable. I like it.
I don't mind being mediocre. What's with the inflated price of everything and the almost no power of purchase with our shitty $$$ - today's world is so tough that even average is just so hard to BE.
I'm happy leaving being super to the cartoons.
Besides, the guy I fall in love with should treat me like a princess and pamper me once in a while. :)
But hey, that's just me!
Happy Monday.
Certainly good to know what lies on the opposite side to "I want, I want, I want". Yup, you're normal :-)
ReplyDeleteNothing wrong with aiming for "average". I hope that you never get so rich that you lose touch with the soul that you reveal here when you write about your inner thoughts.
Oh dear. fireangel needs a little sparkle...
ReplyDeleteCome on baby light my fire.
Set the night on fire.
Come on baby light my fire.
Set your knight on fire!!!
as Clem has said, dun lose your fire.
cheers
Here's to finding the average guy who will "treat me like a princess and pamper me once in a while"!!! :))
ReplyDeleteall u need to do is just ask for it.
ReplyDeleteIt's good to appreciate what we already have instead once in a while.
ReplyDeletei like this entry of yours.. :)
ReplyDelete"I don’t want to quit my job and leave the life of a tai tai."
ReplyDeleteone wordo, and the whole meaning changes, lol
Hmmm ... how come my wife doesn't think like you? God knows, I've done more than you said yet I'm not being appreciated at all. :(
ReplyDeletehate to say that , but the reality is the so called simple man that you asked for ........ doesn't exist.....
ReplyDeletegood luck if you can find one, probably either retard nerdy software engineer or 65 years old ah pek.
Nice entry…it shows that you are a matured sensible girl after all…….
ReplyDeleteTrue happiness dun cost much money; it is the simple thing in life that means the most.
A smile or a hug from your loves one, a cup of nice coffee, a clean bed sheet, mum’s home made soup or just being a lone sometimes.
That sounds like a simpletale instead of fairytale
ReplyDeleteI think you need to figure out the reason why you're not living in one.
i like this entry too.
ReplyDeleteSome people aim high so it isn't too bad when one falls short. Some people get it right and get exactly the average they want. Just go with they flow and enjoy each day as much as possible I guess?
ReplyDelete;) I think what you want can be achieved with a bit of work (ie. open eyes, open heart, and pray for the best :) )
this is a sweet inspiring entry. i wonder how many lives you might have changed writing something so simple yet profoundly meaningful.
ReplyDeletesometimes all it takes is a little nudge to change another's life
Cheers, a bottle of Heineken Extra Cold on me.
ReplyDeleteCorrection, a bottle of Tuborg on me.
ReplyDeletehaha...looks like u stumbled unto a subject everyone agrees on.well if u look at it that way it totally changes a person's view on life n what they expect of it.usually what we mostly hear about day in day out is mostly about wives or girlfriends who are constantly complaining about how the are not being treated as they should be...n how they think they should be treated.i think most girls should read ur article n really come down to earth.so many ppl are so busy chasing after materialistic items that they actually dun see the treasures in front of their eyes..just coz they're not rich or good looking doesn't mean that they're not a suitable life companion.god knows some make better companions or even turn out to be ur soul mate.anyway cheers for coming up with a great article.looking forward to reading more stuff from u.
ReplyDeleteWait till you start washing, ironing, cooking, and etc. All fairytales (or no fairytales) will also become nightmares.
ReplyDeleteEnvironment change. People change. 'She' change. 'He' change.
Well, you seem to know the real world very well... It's no fairy tale thats for sure... However know that the power to become whatever you want to be lies in your hands. Sure, its tough, and probably you try hard, but I believe in the statement that you think, therefore you are. So be it average or super, you are what you want to be. Life becomes that much more bearable when you KNOW that you are in control of your own destiny.
ReplyDeleteBut I'm sure you're doing fine. :) Be yourself, and keep up your rants, because it's only fun to hear complains and curses when it comes from Fireangel, no-one else. :D
FA i give you big hug :) *HUG*
ReplyDeletei wish you lots of happy for christmas!
I didn't realise you wanted me that much! :-)
ReplyDeleteSTILL cannot find ah....sigh....
ReplyDeletewas that meant to scare men? cos i still wan u. heart?
ReplyDeletei want that life too...
ReplyDeletei hear too often that Guys say there are not many nice girls out there. I say, likewise.
i wish u the best. u wil be ok
ReplyDeleteI was sleeping one day and woke up with this thot, it is good not to be alone. I wish that you will be able to find your other half (it doesnt have to be a particular one - you must open your eyes and try to accept some mediocre guys) and not have to live alone. Half the fun of having someone is not having to do things alone.
ReplyDeleteBut having said that, would you settle for someone less than what you want or will you hold out for that Mr Perfect?
..... just pray harder. May be 5X a day will do just nice.
ReplyDeleteFairytales happen. Often when one least expects it.
ReplyDeleteDon't lose faith.
P/s: Yup, just for fun, go watch Enchanted. Even an anti-McDreamy guy like me enjoyed it.
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